Sunday, September 25, 2011

Successes and failures…


It has been now almost 3 weeks since I officially gave up sugar. I am at the same time, slightly disappointed in the amount I have cheated, and also quite proud of how many times I have resisted the urge to cheat. When I began this, I was determined to do it right. I was determined that no matter how difficult it was to control my cravings and how difficult it was to find things that I was allowed to eat, I would not cheat (except for modest alcohol consumption, as it was the only exception I was allowing myself).

I found it was surprisingly easy to find things I could eat and drink. As I generally ate pretty healthy to begin with, I only had to eliminate the bad stuff and find a few new healthy replacements. Whole wheat crackers and unsalted peanuts substituted when I craved the crunch of chips, and the bubbles of seltzer replaced the bubbles I missed in my ginger ale (although I do still miss the ginger in my ginger ale. I think I will have to start drinking more ginger tea and try to incorporate it into my meals occasionally). I consider my greatest success so far in this challenge to be that I have not once cheated due to loss of control and letting my cravings get the better of me. Each and every time I cheated on my diet, I made the conscious decision to do so, and did so at a time when I was not feeling an uncontrollable urge to cheat. Maybe everyone won’t see the difference, but to me it is a big one. I feel in complete control of my cravings, and it feels great!

My biggest disappointment or failure so far is that I have not been cooking healthy meals. I originally planned to try one new recipe a week, to start gradually, but so far I have done this only once in 3 weeks. Despite this, I have not been cheating when I eat dinner. I simply revert to my easy standbys of Trader Joe’s burritos, whole wheat pasta, or a variety of veggies, fruit, whole wheat pita w/ hummus, and whole wheat crackers, or whatever other healthy snack options I keep around the house now.

Ok, I have to change the subject now, because I just had a revelation of sorts… I spent the weekend drinking with a friend from out of town. I made the conscious decision to cheat a little because it’s not often I have friends from out of town. All of my meal choices still followed my required diet, but I indulged in many sugary cocktails this weekend. When I cheat like this, I try to pay attention to the differences I notice in my body. So far, whenever I drink, I notice that my dizziness returns, but I’m never sure if it’s the alcohol or the sugar causing it. Tonight however, just now as I was writing this blog, I experienced one of the more unusual symptoms of sugar overload… eyeball or eye socket ache. When I realized tonight that my eyes were aching, I also realized I haven’t experienced this once since I began my new diet. During my sugar heydays, I experienced eyeball ache frequently and just thought it was a symptom of being overtired.

It is quite an “eye-opener”, and a wonderful motivator when I realize that these symptoms truly are tied to my sugar consumption, and it reminds me how much better I feel when I avoid sugar and all simple carbs. The more I am aware of this, the easier it is to resist temptation. To be honest, a lot of the things I used to crave are now starting to not look so tempting anymore. I still have some seriously bad cravings from time to time (my whole body was shaking on Friday as I tried to resist the temptation to indulge in some delicious looking cupcakes that someone brought in to work), but I am starting to see that I will reach the day when my cravings will disappear or at least fade to almost nothing. I look forward to that day. I am now focusing on all the delicious foods I DO get to eat. It’s been quite an exciting culinary adventure so far, and I haven’t even started cooking for myself yet. Once I get to that phase, I think is when I will really start to forget about all those once-delicious, misery-inducing candies!

And now it is time to rest my weary, aching eyes…

Next blog: The sugar/cancer link…

2 comments:

  1. For quick meals at home, I started making a big batch of brown rice on the weekend (I use organic chicken stock instead of water) and use that as a base for meals throughout the week. Just add veg and protein. The meal I been doing a lot lately is bowl of brown rice w shredded spinach sauteed in garlic/butter and soy sauce w two over easy eggs on top and hot sauce. Pretty inexpensive and super yums.

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  2. That's a good idea! I'm definitely going to start using brown rice for meals. I had sushi this weekend and substituted brown rice and actually liked it better... Thanks for the idea, I'm definitely going to try that!

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